Be Your Own Source; part 2
Part 2
The Darkroom
Once upon a time I was a professional commercial photographer. I had the privilege of learning film photography before it was made obsolete. I photographed jewelry using large format film. This requires large cameras on stationary stands and studio lighting.
We would load the film in pitch black closets into cartridges. We would set up the shot and take 1 or 2 large format Polaroids (which were black and white) to make sure we had the lighting and reflections in the metal and diamonds just right. Then we would take the real image using the loaded film. This meant loading the cartridges into the back of the camera, removing the slide that protected the film from light and then depressing the shutter to expose the film to the flash, creating a film negative.
A film negative is a blueprint for the final tangible print.
Film negatives get processed in a photography darkroom lit only by red light using a focused light projector, photo sensitive paper and chemicals to create the final print.
If you live in America you likely remember taking your film rolls which contained your negatives to the local drug store to get them turned into 4x6 prints.
The process is the same for large format photography as it is for disposable party cameras. We push the button, the shutter opens, it captures a negative and those negatives get processed into prints.
Drug stores used to give back the negatives along with the prints because those are the original blueprints which can be re-printed from in the future if we wanted to.
The creation of form looks a lot like what I just outlined.
Relative reality is a series of images. Snap shots of consciousness. Everything appears to be solid and it looks like a seamless stream moving by but it’s actually a series of images moving so quickly we can’t see the spaces in-between the images.
When you shoot a video you are recording a certain number of what they call, frames per second.
When we think about that we can also easily imagine how fluid matter and relative reality actually is.
When we can change our perspective through expanding out from seeing ourselves only as the end product printed onto paper and instead keep moving back through the whole process all the way back to the blueprint (film negative) and into the untouched film, full only of potential, we can create that feedback loop with ourselves as the source of everything.
In relative reality blueprints are static. Like the architectural drawing of a home, it is drawn on paper and it is what it is. Your source blueprint is not static though, it’s a living design. It is where creation itself is birthed as the energy goes new with every breath.
The way I see it, the spiritual anatomy of our nervous system exists in that dimension, the photography darkroom, between our original blueprint or film negative and our printed image. In the darkroom where we bring the negative to life using the media available to add this amount of chemical and that color filter and a certain amount of exposure, we end up with a tangible print that looks like whatever consciousness went into creating it.
That zone is where alchemy occurs when you become aware that it exists. This is where polarity is unified and where trinitized consciousness can be experienced when we allow our original conscious into the equation because our original human DNA is coded for this.
This is where we experience the new nervous system.
Let’s go back to relative reality being a series of still images. With that being the case, every image is relational to the last image. Our brains are relational machines. They reconstruct reality for us, they fill in the gaps and predict what will happen based on what has already happened.
Our minds are highly highly suggestible and easily manipulated when we aren’t aware of what inorganic energy feels like. And this influence can happen within that zone before consciousness solidifies into form. In the darkroom.
But who we think we are changes our perspective greatly. We start to become aware that we have a darkroom that exists in our spiritual anatomy and that we actually have direct control over what goes on in there.
If we believe that linearity is all there is we experience that and the darkroom stays dark to us and our energy stays stuck and we think we are victims of outside forces because victim consciousness is operating in the very darkroom we refuse to look at or dont know exists.
If we acknowledge ourselves as the creators and relax the mechanisms in our CNS that are keeping us in survival mode, we can begin to see through the eyes of a quantum multidimensional being and we experience that as real and true. Survival mode is there because it’s protecting a person who thinks it needs protecting because it doesn't acknowledge that it’s much much more.
Steps need to be taken into the darkroom before your ready. We need to stand in the middle of that darkness until it reveals more. Until the tension you experience births something new.
A new nervous system that uses intelligence based on boundary-less, nested layers of God intelligence that is harmonious and working in simultaneity. That uses gnosis as the bases of knowledge and all that we are is working in unison across every layer.
The quality of our consciousness matters.
There are qualities of consciousness that keep us in dualistic patterns. If we believe we are anything less than creators we are vulnerable to manipulation. We consent to being messed with by not claiming who we are and working towards the embodiment of that. We give our power away by looking “out there” for energy, by thinking we are less than, by acting like this world isn't consciousness itself.
When we are operating from lower consciousness models like victim or lack we find ourselves in the dualistic nervous system of separation consciousness. These qualities of consciousness puts the new nervous system behind a veil. And all we begin to believe is that the printed photo we call “me” is all there is and that it’s set in stone. When in fact it’s just a snap shot of whatever consciousness we are acting from.
A snapshot in time and space full of information that we can learn from and make new choices from to refine and align ourselves with our original living blueprint.
No matter what happened to create the tangible print, the film negative is always intact and available.
We have been conditioned to layer things on that don't belong to us but the original is always there.
When we let hidden beliefs surface and we notice them they are able to complete their finite movement through time and space. The reason they remain festering in our darkrooms is because they never got to fully express themselves and come to completion. We rejected, suppressed, avoided, judged them as wrong or bad and that stopped our ability to sense the feeling fully. Their charged nature can dissipate naturally through awareness and expression.
For example, if you have an inner predator voice that pops up in negative self-talk and sabotages your actions and you don't pause to see it for what it is, with a sincere open heart and a willingness to let it be there, it will continue to operate in the dark and sabotage you because you never really gave it your attention. The kind of attention it needs to rise up and dissolve. That kind of attention is the attention of a consciousness who approaches their energy through unity. Unity neutralizes charged energy. Unity sees with clear eyes. It is our true nature. This unity consciousness is the return of the Christ everyone is looking out there for. It’s what we each are tapping into through our own quantum DNA, inherent to our humanity and available in our organic original blueprints. We are each what we’re looking for.
When we think of ourselves as less than what we are we invite archetypal energies to assume roles for us and instead of recognizing our power to let these energies go, they get stuck in those roles. Over time we think that’s just who and how we are.
So the more aware we are the more we can mature by gaining our sovereignty back.
We gave it away when we didn't know better but it’s always there to be reclaimed.
Reclaimed not earned. It’s your birthright.
We have many options within the zone of reality creation. You have to choose what quality of consciousness you want to express. When archetypal roles are running on automatic that’s not conscious choice.
If you know what’s going on and you’re not making moves towards ascending currents it will take its toll on you.
Self-mastery involves becoming conscious and allowing whats no longer relevant to you, to go. This means finding ways to get sober. Finding ways to take better care of yourself and others. It’s about taking actions, walking the walk as they say so that you can then BE what you are.
When we claim our power and our sovereignty we are creators and our nervous systems reflect that truth. And therefore our own experience of reality is created around that truth as well.
Our new nervous systems are trinitized consciousness. Not separate from duality, connected and unified. Nervous systems that are quantum, that feel and know the multidimensional layers of self. A nervous system that has a feedback loop with the zero point fields and breaths as one. A nervous system that expresses your organic and original blueprint directly without interference from separation consciousness but with the energy in service to you as creator.
The more aware we are of our metaphysical nature through inner exploration and letting it be real, the more we allow our consciousness to make changes in the darkroom of our light body.
The darkroom is the laboratory where we create our reality with precision using our metaphysical tools of sensory perception and gnosis, to feel our way into alignment and be who we came here to be.